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Hit Rewind

Hit the rewind button, let's go back and replay those memories. I can remember most of it like it was yesterday. It is all still so real and tangible. I can still feel it; the pain and tears as they cloud my eyes and run down my cheeks. I'm not sure if the pain ever completely goes away. The trauma and wounds happen, they physically heal and sometimes leave scars. Sometimes scars run deep. They pull on the surrounding tissue reminding you of another time; of who you were, what you did and who you've become.

We weren't married when Jason was hurt, only engaged. We were high school sweethearts, new to this "adulting" thing, and only weeks past my nineteenth birthday. Jason, a year and a half older but none the less still fresh into the adult world. We had been engaged for 6 months and were "planning" a wedding after he returned from Iraq. Anticipating exchanging vows sometime in September of 2004 yet that was still all hearsay. If you are a military fam…

Converstation Starters

Conversations... how to start, how to start? "What the h*ll happened to you?" Probably not one of the best starters but not uncommon in our lives. Some people deliver the question with a little more grace than the one stated above. Others look and watch, some try to look and keep their watchful eye un-noticed, little kids are blunt but never rude! For the most part it's always noticed but hey we are almost 15 years into this and we are used to it. 

What are we used to? What is our elephant in the room? My husband is blind. You maybe thinking that's not that noticeable and you're correct. He is not legally blind, totally blind. As he would describe it to the sighted population; envision the black night sky with the stars and take out the starlight. That black is all he sees, all of the time.  He is also missing his right eye. That is really what makes us standout. Put the lack of an eye and total blindness together and there you have it folks, our elephant.

We haven…